These days I am learning a whole lot about priorities.
The biggest thing I have learned is that your priorities speak of who you are and who you want to be.
Priorities are not just a list of tasks, things to accomplish, something to check off.
I am learning more and more about myself that I want to be a business woman, I want to have a career, I want to be (here’s that word some cringe at) successful. I want to work crazy hours, I want to go without sleeping in order to meet goals. I have gifts and talents and I want to go somewhere with them. I want to lead, and inspire. I want to change the world. Don’t we all?
I also want to pause my workaholic life at the drop of a hat for my family. I have the best family in the world. We belong in a movie or a tv show, you can’t convince me otherwise. We’re like Parenthood… But… Less drama… And we’re funnier… We are. And I want to always be there when my family needs me. Which, granted, is trickier when they’re on the other side of the country.
I want to pursue art. I want to start drawing and painting again. As well as sewing and designing. I want to read books and I want to write books. These are things I’m good at and I love, but I put aside because I “didn’t have time anymore”. I want to find time for the things that are not just a hobby but a lifeline.
I want to be a mom one day. No, I haven’t forgotten the whole wife and mother option of life. Just give me like 10-15 years… But really. My heart is still (and forever) for adoption. Sometimes when I’m just sitting still and daydreaming I think how much greater sitting still and daydreaming would be with a little snuggly baby in my arms. Honestly I think more about adopting than I do about getting married. No offense, future husband.
I know life is anything but a smooth ride, but in the words of Liz Lemon, “I can do it! I can have it all!”
I want to be a working woman, I want to paint pictures, I want to hop on a plane in an instance to be with my family, I want to stay up working all night, I want to adopt eventually while still being a career woman, I want to take time to read a book like I used to.
I want all of these areas to be my priority. I don’t want to get so stressed and overwhelmed by one that I neglect the others. I don’t want to be guilted for focusing on multiple areas of life. I don’t want to value one area of my life above another. I want everything I do to be something I believe is worth my time enough that I give it all the same amount of effort.
I have worked under a myriad of bosses and leaders that handle work, pressure, and off-time very differently. I have seen what works well and what does not. We all need balance, and balance is a fight and a choice. Balance can be the difference between sinking or swimming.
I want my priorities to say that I work hard, that I love my family, that I value the gifts we have that are like breathing to us.
What do your priorities say about you?